This Morning
May. 5th, 2008 04:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
madshutterbugFog blanketed North Central Baja Jorja as I left the Ranch for work. Not so heavy that one couldn't see at all. Visibility varied from as little as 300 feet to 3/4 mile. The sun wasn't quite visible above the horizon, just enough light to let everyone know it would be soon. One of those mornings that incredible photo opportunities are available. Except, of course, I'm earning my daily bread selling my time to Hospital.
I frequently will see things as great photos, only I know I'm not going to make the photograph. Usually it's because I don't happen to have a camera with me, or perhaps I'm out of film or space on the memory card. This morning fits the former category. Our horses grazed in the morning, not far from the gate, and that provided today's stimulus for this philosophical moment. No camera. Would want to wait for a bit more light, anyway. Gotta go to Hospital.
Wouldn't you know one of the features on NPR discussed retirement, since this year is truly the first 'wave' of the Boomer generation hitting the magic year for collecting Social Security. I'm not there yet, and even after the two years and some change left before I can tell Hospital, "It's been grand, now pay me not to come here anymore," I'm still going to need to sell my time to someone for things like health insurance and other mandatory expenses. Oh, yes, I will, and thank you very much Mr. Bush. Not Jeb, his older (chronologically) brother.
Yet, I'm feeling twinges of resentment that I can't make the time available for photographs such as 'Horses Grazing in the Fog'. Oh, I made my choices and I'm rather OK with them, or at least mostly. I opted for somewhat greater security which means somewhat more restricted time for creativity just now.
Tempus fugit.
And I'm receiving all too many reminders of that recently.
I frequently will see things as great photos, only I know I'm not going to make the photograph. Usually it's because I don't happen to have a camera with me, or perhaps I'm out of film or space on the memory card. This morning fits the former category. Our horses grazed in the morning, not far from the gate, and that provided today's stimulus for this philosophical moment. No camera. Would want to wait for a bit more light, anyway. Gotta go to Hospital.
Wouldn't you know one of the features on NPR discussed retirement, since this year is truly the first 'wave' of the Boomer generation hitting the magic year for collecting Social Security. I'm not there yet, and even after the two years and some change left before I can tell Hospital, "It's been grand, now pay me not to come here anymore," I'm still going to need to sell my time to someone for things like health insurance and other mandatory expenses. Oh, yes, I will, and thank you very much Mr. Bush. Not Jeb, his older (chronologically) brother.
Yet, I'm feeling twinges of resentment that I can't make the time available for photographs such as 'Horses Grazing in the Fog'. Oh, I made my choices and I'm rather OK with them, or at least mostly. I opted for somewhat greater security which means somewhat more restricted time for creativity just now.
Tempus fugit.
And I'm receiving all too many reminders of that recently.
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Date: 2008-05-06 02:09 am (UTC)I haven't taken any photos in months. As you say, choices and priorities and sometimes art has to get put aside for a little while to make more time for it a little later.
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Date: 2008-05-06 04:53 pm (UTC)We aren't even talking about working through historical film archives to sort, catalog, classify, and scan work into the digital library.
I'll stop now. I'm over-indulging my rant button.
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Date: 2008-05-06 08:36 pm (UTC)Might be nice if I took some time to actually TAKE some photos...