There is a journal, an LJ, I've been following... off and on, from a distance. It's been easy to do, as several of the people I read here regularly also read this LJ, so I've not needed to 'friend' the one in discussion. I didn't want to, not because this is a bad person.
I
knew something. I knew it the first time I stopped to read there. That
knowing, it's something that comes on me at times. It's frightening. I run from it to no avail, because. Well. Because it can't be run from, really. It's just something. It's me. I do this betimes. I
know things. That
knowing is a big part of why, when the time came to leave the NICU it was
time, now, right now, set things down and walk away. And when the most recent news postings came in those LJ's I read which are one degree of separation... that
knowing stirred, and nodded, and all of that added to this week's wierd.
Wierd in the old,
old sense, the experiencing a wierding.
This. Whole. Week.
All the dates are lining up on the days as they did 11 years ago. No big deal, really, the calendar does that. Just this year, it is a Wierding for me. And now, I understand a bit better, because once again
knowing came and sat within me.
( And so, the rest also goes within... )